07 April 2009
Counting My Blessings
Right now I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I have a wonderful husband, 3 beautiful girls, a healthy baby on the way, a nice big house, a new "family" size car, family and friends that would do anything for me, I have the gospel in my life, the list could go on and on. Lately I've just been sitting at home bored out of my mind thinking of all the things I want (like my life isn't great enough as it is). I complain to Jared all the time that I love our new house but now I really want new furniture and decorations to go in it. I am getting ridiculously huge this pregnancy so I'd really love to go out and buy a bunch of new cute clothes to lift my spirits, then in a few more months when I've lost some weight buy a whole new ward robe again. What is my deal?!! Seriously! When I was listening to President Monson speak on Sunday (morning I think it was) and he started to tell the story of a woman who lost her husband and all four children to freezing and starvation and had to dig their burials with a spoon or her bare hands in the cold hard ground, I completely LOST it!!! This lady lost her entire family for the building of the church and here I think my life stinks because I can't buy some new throw pillows for my couches. Silly, isn't it? I can't even fathom the thought of waking up next to my daughter and feeling a cold lifeless arm against mine, or having my baby die in my arms because I didn't have food to feed it. Stories like this literally break my heart, yet I need to hear them every now and again to help me appreciate all that I really do have. I think of all the people in the world that are still dying of starvation and it makes me so sad. I realize those new pillows really aren't that important to my life or my salvation. I am so grateful for all that I have. I am thankful for my parents raising me in the church and giving me all they have. I am thankful for Jared working hard to support our growing family so I can be at home with our kids. As bored as I may get sometimes always being at home, I know I am doing what my Heavenly Father would have me do. As a woman, I can't think of anything more fulfilling than always being there for my children when they need me, day or night. I am so grateful that I don't have to miss out on any part of their lives. They grow up so fast and I am extremely thankful I get to be there with them to witness every growing moment. I love my kids and I love Jared and our family and friends. I am so thankful for the life I have been given and I hope my Heavenly Father will be proud of the things I do while I am here on this Earth. I am sooo thankful for Jesus and the sacrifice He made so we can live with Him again someday. I am so grateful to know my Jerrybear and kids are sealed to me forever. Seriously, I just absolutely love this church and the gospel! It just makes my life so much easier and so much more meaningful. This General Conference there were a lot of talks that made me realize how freaking lucky I really am and I am so thankful for our Prophet and Apostles and their guidance and teachings. More than anything, I am thankful for my 3(soon to be 4) greatest blessings ever and I am so grateful Jared and I are able to give them a cozy home to live in, food to fill their bellies and the gospel to warm their hearts. How incredibly blessed am I!?!!